tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7943232549882386472024-03-13T01:15:40.555+00:00Poems/Scribbles I write with limited expressions, long forgotten honesty, all shaken in a cocktail of innuendo and dead flower pointlessness.....Tim R all poems are © owned by Author..T A Roberts ©Tim Robertshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09781051998328115379noreply@blogger.comBlogger11125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794323254988238647.post-14784132268677466032013-01-06T15:44:00.001+00:002016-01-23T14:58:21.683+00:00The Un-kissed Hours <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<br />
I read books for company.<br />
<br />
I read books to fill me.<br />
<br />
finishing a book is a like a funeral<br />
<br />
or the aftermath of great sex.<br />
<br />
the un-kissed hours.<br />
<br />
a void of the unspoken.<br />
<br />
bliss at half price<br />
<br />
where desolation reigns<br />
<br />
but<br />
<br />
where words are found.<br />
<br />
there is nothing more intimate<br />
<br />
than silence.<br />
<br />
are we flirting<br />
<br />
or just talking ?<br />
<br />
flirting will be the death of love.<br />
<br />
but I am bereft.<br />
<br />
a worn out cynic.<br />
<br />
solitude is a soul breaker.<br />
<br />
solitude is a man maker.<br />
<br />
just like vulnerable buttons on a blouse.<br />
<br />
we all come undone too easily.<br />
<br />
bravado just covers the blushes of<br />
<br />
a socially inept fool.<br />
<br />
a recluse.<br />
<br />
never expecting much<br />
<br />
but hoping<br />
<br />
all the same.<br />
<br />
at times I mourn all these years<br />
<br />
not having someone to love<br />
<br />
and to love me back.<br />
<br />
life seems unfair.<br />
<br />
some of us are just born not to be desired<br />
<br />
or noticed.<br />
<br />
condemned to writing about it.<br />
<br />
but I can unearth a muse.<br />
<br />
I bet you can't.<br />
<br />
I expect you just drown in smiles.<br />
<br />
sip the melancholia.<br />
<br />
it may become you.<br />
<br />
during the<br />
<br />
un-kissed hours.<br />
<br />
<br />
<b style="background-color: #080808; color: white; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">© 2013 © T. A. Roberts </b><br />
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<br />
<div class="MsoNormal">
I am a peace envoy at war with himself.<br />
<div class="MsoNormal">
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br />
I went to the school of love but was taught hate.<br />
<br />
I like the Theatre but have a foul mouth.<br />
<br />
I enter a library to achieve freedom but leave with my hands chained.</div>
<br />
I get my kicks from pissing in canals and calling it art.<br />
<br />
conversations on stairwells and a lost life.<br />
<br />
love only happens to those who don’t fight it when the lights go out.</div>
</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
sepia moments tainted by black and white memories in colour.<br />
<br />
avant garde plimsoll wearer and full time lolly licker.<br />
<br />
coco chanel.....<br />
<br />
memories will do for all of us..</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
cakes and cunt can taste the same but no summer was ever complete<br />
<br />
without a picnic and finger nails sinking into a wet August Primrose Hill.<br />
<br />
precious lips and dysfunctional eye lid... details I notice.<br />
<br />
simmering glances from a hedonistic temptress.<br />
<br />
I sit on the tube and regret my entire life.<br />
<br />
ascending escalators and descending dreams.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
twisted dreams and blusher stained pillows.<br />
<br />
a love that died in clouds of cigarette smoke and my periodic madness.<br />
<br />
some people touch your life but very few will consume it.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
places I will never see.<br />
<br />
flesh I will never touch.<br />
<br />
songs I wrote that will never be sung.<br />
<br />
roads never trodden and post cards never sent.<br />
<br />
those post cards from impossible holidays.<br />
<br />
those love letters of the lonely only ever read by the author.<br />
<br />
comfort found in solitude.<br />
<br />
<br />
<b>© 2010 © T. A. Roberts</b></div>
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<br />
she says she painted all night because art helps her remove the lust I placed in her fragile god fearing mind.<br />
<br />
my lust left on a bus many years ago and hasn't been seen anywhere near me since.<br />
<br />
I need a muse...find me a muse.<br />
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
hand up thigh in public.. torture for lovers without privacy and no where else to go except public spaces.<br />
<br />
I saw a Muslim girl relieve her man in a royal park and the irony of the moment<br />
cracked a smile on my wasted face.<br />
<br />
I visit London parks and spend hours sitting looking at tree's, occasional couples, and pieces of litter.<br />
<br />
I talk to lamp posts and duck the flies that reject dog shit.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
London is my canvas and I walk her to be tormented by her.. the flash of flesh on a decent pair of legs not only inspires but torments.<br />
<br />
the measure is equal.<br />
<br />
I see a whole life in lost afternoons in this melting pot.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
carry my baggage for it is far too heavy for me.<br />
<br />
I am not tall enough to see and not broad enough to be a man.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
I enter a cafe/wine bar and ask for a table for two knowing that I will be the only one dining.<br />
<br />
It is a strange kind of company knowing that you can order for two but remain alone.<br />
<br />
I call it ‘the experiment of the never ending line of broken souls who suffer heartbreaking self pity’. </div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
was going to be a book but the title is a bit of a cunt. </div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
my next idea for a book is called...<br />
<br />
experiments in sex and grocery shopping.<br />
<br />
sex won't save me but food will.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
I am finding the past tense in future scribbles.<br />
<br />
I know it is going to be hard so I may as well start writing it now.<br />
<br />
recently I have been starving myself and surviving on only water.<br />
<br />
feeling this bad requires one to look bad.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
I start a class war every time I leave my flat, every time another ‘broadsheet newspaper’ is pushed in my face.<br />
<br />
I would shove it up his arse but where he comes from it would be considered as sex.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br />
criminal bankers and half bald wankers...suburbia is the toilet you do your worst shit in. </div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
I got stuck in a thought process and not even the traffic in bayswater road could deflect me.<br />
<br />
I want to be in this slumber forever.<br />
<br />
depression becomes me.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
I love the sound of lawns being cut...<br />
<br />
something about it brings comfort to me.<br />
<br />
I like 99 ice cream cones and the smell of nivea on sun burnt flesh.<br />
<br />
cheap holidays and rock that rotted the teeth.<br />
<br />
sucking on it just to get at the skewed badly written letters.<br />
<br />
the smell of a penny arcade...<br />
<br />
all cruel tricks played out during the innocence of childhood. </div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
she says she painted all night because art helps her remove the lust I placed in her fragile god fearing mind.<br />
<br />
all I have left are bad thoughts and the perverted kicks of a tired word junkie.<br />
<br />
<br />
<b>2010 © T.A.Roberts ©</b></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<div>
<b><br /></b></div>
</div>
</div>
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<br />
I purchased a book in a shop for cunts and unemployed cats.<br />
<br />
It was written by the biographer of cafe life <br />
<br />
and the author of love letters for coffee drinkers.<br />
<br />
I read it whilst sitting in a greasy spoon just off chapel street market.<br />
<br />
burns on arms and good wine on lips.<br />
<br />
the lady who served me brings comfort.<br />
<br />
she has a London accent and lives for nicotine.<br />
<br />
she is perfectly imperfect like the rest of us.<br />
<br />
lust has long been replaced by the crumbs of an unloved biscuit.<br />
<br />
melancholia has messed with her libido.<br />
<br />
she spends most nights dry.<br />
<br />
give me a word and I will write you a poem...<br />
<br />
give me a stone and I will break you a window...<br />
<br />
I saw the end of love in her eyes.<br />
<br />
she is my mother and sister.<br />
<br />
she is the ballerina of my soap opera.<br />
<br />
I threw my cigarette into a bin that cared.<br />
<br />
forbidden fruit is overrated and it gets messy.<br />
<br />
I still seek reason in the gutters.<br />
<br />
but<br />
<br />
the first girl I kissed tasted of spangles...<br />
<br />
and this is all I know.<br />
<br />
<br />
<b>© </b><b>T.A.Roberts 2012</b></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
<br />
I wrote a love letter in 1983<br />
<br />
to my tragic wallflower and sister of the dark side. <br />
<br />
I woke up next to you afraid.<br />
<br />
a beauty in slow motion.<br />
<br />
I was born just behind your eyes.<br />
<br />
one day your picture will hang in a gallery for the lesser people to view.<br />
<br />
I suffered the streets to reach you.<br />
<br />
do you remember the bus stop? I think it was a Sunday.<br />
<br />
chalk hearts were melted by rain.<br />
<br />
they were just testaments of young love and<br />
<br />
delusion.<br />
<br />
I was, and I still am , a melancholy mother-fucker.<br />
<br />
I miss the park life of hand holding.<br />
<br />
unclaimed jelly tots on a dusty mantelpiece.<br />
<br />
I can say I kissed your lips in 1983.<br />
<br />
old letters left stupidly in the bedside drawer.<br />
<br />
a photograph left behind for the purposes of torture.<br />
<br />
her eyes painted dark like the sky.<br />
<br />
I met her at a Gary Numan gig.<br />
<br />
my hand brushed against her chest outside a chip shop in<br />
<br />
the fulham palace road.<br />
<br />
and to say it changed my life would be an understatement.<br />
<br />
hammersmith odeon was my kind of church.<br />
<br />
watching her apply make up was my personal art gallery.<br />
<br />
a dark angel with nice boobs.<br />
<br />
happiness is easy, darkness was meant.<br />
<br />
under the hammersmith flyover...<br />
<br />
in another life.<br />
<br />
<div class="MsoNormal">
I serenaded you with marshmallows and occasional plastic flowers.<br />
<br />
tube platform salvation on rainy days.<br />
<br />
catch a 37 bus out of peckham.<br />
<br />
love is a stranger.<br />
<br />
warped on a walkman.<br />
<br />
the pavement cracks somehow reflected our lives.<br />
<br />
the sun never quite shone.<br />
<br />
our landscape was concrete.<br />
<br />
I stole an eyeliner pencil and became me.<br />
<br />
eyeliner made my eyes acceptable and warped vinyl records validated<br />
<br />
my entire existence.<br />
<br />
I got kicked around by skinheads...<br />
<br />
who are now sucking off the state.<br />
<br />
I was never ordinary.<br />
<br />
who wants to be fucking ordinary ?<br />
<br />
trodden on bubble gum.<br />
<br />
dancing with damned.<br />
<br />
rubik cube confusion and Our Price Records<br />
<br />
am I in love?.....<br />
<br />
love at first sight?....<br />
<br />
phone me a cliche.<br />
<br />
I want to go home<br />
<br />
to coffee stains.<br />
<br />
I started writing this on a fag packet, in a pub, and called it<br />
<br />
a love letter.<br />
<br />
a love letter to 1983.<br />
<br />
she stuck it on her fridge<br />
<br />
with an abbey road magnet.<br />
<br />
it's more than I could have<br />
<br />
hoped for.<br />
<br />
one day I will write a line<br />
<br />
that will crush you. <br />
<br />
you with a<br />
<br />
face like flowers.<br />
<br />
texture like candles.<br />
<br />
taste like spangles.<br />
<br />
<br />
<b>© </b><b>Written and owned by </b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">© </b><b>T.A.Roberts 2012</b></div>
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<br />
<br />
I write with limited expressions and long forgotten honesty,<br />
<br />
all shaken in a cocktail of innuendo<br />
<br />
and dead flower pointlessness.<br />
<div>
<br /></div>
it lingered and tortured my thought process.<br />
<br />
the scent of a passing stranger on a tube station platform.<br />
<br />
she smells somewhere between heaven and a better place.<br />
<br />
traces of a past that I am not quite sure really happened.<br />
<br />
a face crafted by an artist who cared.<br />
<br />
she drenches angels with self doubt.<br />
<br />
why don't I know you?..<br />
<br />
maybe your hand slipped from mine whilst I wasn't looking.<br />
<br />
I started writing to find you.<br />
<br />
I wrote some lyrics.<br />
<br />
It will be our song that will never be sung...<br />
<br />
....tragic but poetic.<br />
<br />
a vase full of dead roses that never loved me.<br />
<br />
are you the last of the unblemished roses?<br />
<br />
and is it nice being adored?<br />
<br />
well, at least falling apart has soul.<br />
<br />
each night I drip in insomnia.<br />
<br />
In my cracked sleep I dream of you. It's a charitable psychosis.<br />
<br />
there are kisses that will never find the lips for which they were intended.<br />
<br />
the brutal emptiness of a one night stand, not desired.<br />
<br />
I fell in love with you and hated the world for it.<br />
<br />
but I don't know you...<br />
<br />
and never will.<br />
<br />
she dances through my life...but she doesn't know it.<br />
<br />
she sang for me once and it broke me.<br />
<br />
her pale flesh a canvas for a fucked up artist.<br />
<br />
painted finger nails waiting to scratch the life from this life.<br />
<br />
perfection is over rated<br />
<br />
like tea with sugar and nicotine.<br />
<br />
I would drink from you if you allowed me.<br />
<br />
I would worship at the church of your dirty laundry.<br />
<br />
whisper<br />
<br />
never shout.<br />
<br />
love is loud enough as it is.<br />
<br />
the scent of a passing stranger.<br />
<br />
misguided lust from an innocent pen.<br />
<br />
I write with limited expressions and long forgotten honesty,<br />
<br />
all shaken in a cocktail of innuendo<br />
<br />
and dead flower pointlessness.<br />
<br />
©<b> Owned by Boris Danski Written by Tim Roberts March 2012 </b>©<br />
<br />
<br />
<br /></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal">
<br />
a bright young thing with the look of an artist</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
an indie rock queen folded with the elegance<br />
<br />
of a homely daughter<br />
<br />
the verve of youth touched with the sexiness<br />
<br />
of womanhood<br />
<br />
colour in the black and white</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
something in that face ticks my tock<br />
<br />
but I am just an old man<br />
<br />
who muses the untouchable<br />
<br />
the out of reach<br />
<br />
my kicks are obtained from knowing</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br />
the likes of her exist amongst the<br />
<br />
dull and grey<br />
<br />
dancing with the rain and gutter trash<br />
<br />
to pale them into insignificance</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
photographs will find her</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
beauty?...no</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br />
beauty is limited</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br />
her face has so much more<br />
<br />
stories hidden behind mascara eyes<br />
<br />
parting lips that whisper but only I can hear</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br />
her face</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
a face made to drench<br />
<br />
angels in self doubt<br />
<br />
I sat on a cold bench soaking in the rain</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br />
suffering the effects of too much drink<br />
<br />
when I started to write this in my head</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
tiny pulses are felt if you </div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br />
seek them out</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
some lucky bastard watches her apply make up<br />
<br />
first thing in the morning<br />
<br />
brush strokes of an artist</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
she is the river I ran dry<br />
<br />
the beautiful but tainted youth<br />
<br />
tainted by the media and mr and mrs righteous cunt who read<br />
<br />
the daily mail.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
men froth at the thought of her on the tube<br />
<br />
every morning<br />
<br />
but consider suicide when they realize they never<br />
<br />
ever possessed<br />
<br />
the cool milk shake look<br />
<br />
of the camden eyeliner princess</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
there is a place to sit and imagine what this beautiful ugly town can do for you<br />
<br />
failing that just get lost in love making<br />
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
photographs will find her</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
she glides through the market<br />
<br />
all dark glasses, glam rock chic, and mosh pit stalker</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br />
I can imagine her dancing in the</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br />
electric ballroom<br />
<br />
in the 1980's<br />
<br />
feel the lust in an unspoken moment<br />
<br />
find solace in public Libraries and coffee stained cafe's </div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
bright young thing<br />
<br />
with the look of an artist<br />
<br />
photographs must find her</div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br />
and I hope they will<br />
<br />
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<b><span style="font-size: 10pt;">Written and</span></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"> © </b><b><span style="font-size: 10pt;"> owned by T Andrew Roberts 2010</span></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"> © </b><b><span style="font-size: 10pt;"> Boris Danski</span></b></div>
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she wore black and it was beautiful, like a day full of sunshine,<br />
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but where a cloud was raining in my ever so stupid head.<br />
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I was happy to just have passed you.<br />
<br />
I found solace in a two second stare and a match box.<br />
<br />
brewer street blues and a comb I can not use anymore, and where reality is a sandwich in plastic wrapping and staring at reflections in shop windows.<br />
<br />
mirrors haunt me, they are everywhere. <br />
<br />
I walk the West End sometimes for hours searching for that one line but return home with just dirty finger nails from tube trains.<br />
<br />
the flower seller cries a tear for the flower never sold.<br />
<br />
rose bud and redundant thorn, discarded to the gutter with fag ends and a stud that dropped from the rude boy’s ear.<br />
<br />
revolution stirs and I am calling time on clit tipping and salad hating.<br />
<br />
there are far more important things to worry about like masturbation of the masses over plastic looking orange girls. <br />
<br />
It has been 4 years since a fuck and a fag... drip, drip, drip, like a tap... fit to burst and coiled like a spring.<br />
<br />
I can not tell the difference between sunrise and sunset anymore but know that I hate daytime TV for it is the graveyard of the damned. I am anarchy, like butter.<br />
<br />
I'm the opera singer who made it on stage but only managed a Karaoke version of ‘Let it be’ <br />
<br />
say ‘fuck’ to me in that ever so polished voice of yours....minimal erotica. <br />
<br />
I only ask that of you so that I can pull your hair, to lay in silence and listen to the sounds of the city not so far; the constant buzz and orange skies.<br />
<br />
supermarket flowers were never you. </div>
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dreams made and left imprinted for all to see, like a movie screen for the crushed romantics; like a meeting place for the heartbroken where first kisses are recalled but are and now mourned like a death in the family. <br />
<br />
reemploy the butterflies and warn your stomach;<br />
<br />
she is another that is not of us.<br />
<br />
instant fairy-tale and sweet ending to a good book.<br />
<br />
crafted hands and an arse for couture dining.<br />
<br />
haunt like perfume and shatter like glass... piss on me...I love it. <br />
<br />
I hung my dreams out with the washing so as to dry them; no need to watch the clock.<br />
<br />
love binds people who have no roads to live on and sex wets people with no one to love on. <br />
<br />
look for a clue in soiled metaphors and rely on hope; but it’s the hope that cuts and kills. <br />
<br />
my eyes reflecting the truth.<br />
<br />
I hang out at the Curzon not because I am clever, but because I like a film that speaks to me.<br />
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enter my world at your peril.<br />
<br />
contradictions are what I specialize in. <br />
<br />
everyone likes a beautiful woman but few will ever really love one.<br />
<br />
trophies get dusty on neglected pedestals.<br />
<br />
I went on strike and joined the picket line of the impossible.<br />
<br />
she wore black....she mourned for me.<br />
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">© </b>Danski 2010 <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">© </b> (copyright owned by the author T A Roberts)</div>
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I sit down by the canal lock<br />
<br />
and write love letters.<br />
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not to anyone in particular.<br />
<br />
I throw them to the wind you see. <br />
<br />
every 3rd Wednesday<br />
<br />
I buy 3 roses and give them to<br />
<br />
3 strangers<br />
<br />
each time. <br />
<br />
I was going to write a verse<br />
<br />
for a valentine’s card<br />
<br />
but decided to blow my<br />
<br />
brains out<br />
<br />
instead.<br />
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empty gestures don't fill my balls. </div>
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today I saw the<br />
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girl<br />
<br />
who has inspired<br />
<br />
every drop of ink<br />
<br />
that has left my pen.<br />
<br />
each and every word<br />
<br />
I have written for<br />
<br />
year upon year.<br />
<br />
I saw her in Camden Market. <br />
<br />
vintage dress and ‘make up’ serene<br />
<br />
like a screen queen or<br />
<br />
a 1950’s prom queen awaiting men to do<br />
<br />
men things. </div>
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she will break many a man though.<br />
<br />
I can tell just by the way she lights her<br />
<br />
cigarette and takes her first drag.<br />
<br />
unhurried.<br />
<br />
no 'fuck me shoes' ever found their way on to her feet.<br />
<br />
I found her<br />
<br />
lost in rainbows under a<br />
<br />
moody<br />
<br />
london sky. <br />
<br />
hope I still love you the next time it<br />
<br />
snows.<br />
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I hear it’s romantic. <br />
<br />
I had never met her<br />
<br />
or set eyes on her<br />
<br />
before today. <br />
<br />
I just knew she<br />
<br />
existed. <br />
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<b><span style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">© </span>Danski 2010 <span style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">© </span> (copyright owned by the author T A Roberts)</b></div>
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she is my sister of the dark room,<br />
<br />
the candy floss girl with toffee apple dreams<br />
<br />
and an arse I would worship.<br />
<br />
pierce me with a scream and I will write you a song with no verse.<br />
<br />
it will be an urban bittersweet story with a twist of cunt envy.<br />
<br />
coco chanel upon flesh so tortured.<br />
<br />
the art house whore, that I am, can picture the tears falling<br />
<br />
on a black and white face where the only words spoken are<br />
<br />
oui oui oui. <br />
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he the perfect failiure and dead flower blooming.<br />
<br />
fucked a hundred girls but only made love to one.<br />
<br />
broken soul trying to find his way home.<br />
<br />
redundant romantic with unused one liners<br />
<br />
common as muck and a London accent.<br />
<br />
loved the love but hated the mess.<br />
<br />
cut the grass but killed the roses.<br />
<br />
took a smile and made it a frown.<br />
<br />
built a circus but sacked all the clowns. <br />
<br />
cheap thrills and Dream Topping, the horror of<br />
<br />
high street shopping.<br />
<br />
hallucinations brought on by the pills<br />
<br />
I had been dropping.<br />
<br />
brown sauce on bacon, it<br />
<br />
liberates one's senses. <br />
<br />
I saw another version of me in my local supermarket<br />
<br />
oh and she was so beautiful.<br />
<br />
she studied her shopping list and I studied the possibility of<br />
<br />
mediocre me<br />
<br />
with her.<br />
<br />
no one owns me and I follow nothing<br />
<br />
and that is why they make up stories about me.<br />
<br />
look into my eyes and you know<br />
<br />
I will fuck you.<br />
<br />
but only because<br />
<br />
I am<br />
<br />
weak. <br />
<br />
let me write stories and poems about your<br />
<br />
ankles<br />
<br />
and how good they look in those shoes.<br />
<br />
let me serenade you with my bravado and<br />
<br />
cocktails of filth ridden words.<br />
<br />
the contents of your handbag and glint in your eyes gives hope to<br />
<br />
the lonely.<br />
<br />
you are not fit for plastic table cafe and the secrets told by<br />
<br />
coffee stains.<br />
<br />
I know because you wear lady gloves and glide. <br />
<br />
us tragic romantics are exactly that<br />
<br />
tragic.<br />
<br />
and we see everything but deal only<br />
<br />
in crumbs.<br />
<br />
lost souls with coffee stained teeth.<br />
<br />
I am consumed by the dreams of a 16 year old but I am now<br />
<br />
46.<br />
<br />
all hope left on the train to cuntville. <br />
<br />
Boris Danski will rise again and walk by London Bridge.<br />
<br />
close the curtains and block out the light for I need to withdraw. <br />
<br />
you made my typing finger bleed<br />
<br />
and created a space in my head to accept beauty again. <br />
<br />
one of these days you will stick your arse in my face<br />
<br />
and I will write 2000 words in tribute to it and they alone will only <br />
<br />
create one stanza. <br />
<br />
I could have come to see you but maybe it was your<br />
<br />
god who stopped me.<br />
<br />
you liken me to the scent of a pretty flower picked from a<br />
<br />
dirty swamp.<br />
<br />
rough cut diamond and rose of the underclass.<br />
<br />
splinters from dead trees..... but park benches offer me moments of<br />
<br />
bliss and solitude. <br />
<br />
dirty rain on summer London streets.<br />
<br />
it falls on me but I am beyond dirty.<br />
<br />
tainted pavements always near violence and never close to love.<br />
<br />
holding hands was my favorite game. <br />
<br />
I find dark eroticism in the ladder and hole in her stockings....<br />
<br />
her on the tube train at 7.45am<br />
<br />
it is morning but she has time to have been torn.<br />
<br />
torn like all of us.<br />
<br />
I am amazed by nothing much but can see the possibility<br />
<br />
of a whole book<br />
<br />
ultimately inspired by the damaged material<br />
<br />
covering a female leg. <br />
<br />
<b>Boris Danski 2010 © Written and Owned by © T A Roberts</b><br />
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I tried so hard to write the letter I had always wanted to write but when I sit there, with pen in hand, I dry up. Fuck me; do you think I think this stuff out? Of course not, I write like I fuck. I go round the houses and eventually hit all the right buttons and then you are mine. How deluded am I?</div>
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I tried so hard to keep my concentration but the fag ash kept falling on my lap. I sat outside my favorite cafe in Soho, just off Old Compton Street enough not to be a gay place. Why such a deluded old fucker like me sees the romance in a coffee stain on an old table lord only knows. But I run my finger round it and lick it and somehow I taste her and the words come. </div>
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I tried so hard to get away from the being me and slowly I am getting there. Have you noticed I am not such a self harm bore anymore? Rehab was 10 years ago but the marks on my arms are like they were put there yesterday and they remind me of dark corners and unspoken sins. They remind me of a 1000 wanks over her, and sticky magazines; of a bad night when I wet the bed; of the night I took too many pills and lost 4 days; of the day they took me in; of the day I looked in the mirror and saw a freak.</div>
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Damn it, there would be no need to be lonely if I could bite the pillow and think of England. But hey I love the silky taste of a female and I am thirsty for it like a man lost in a desert without water, armed only with an iPod stuck on the same old tune. That’s me, playing the same old tune; waiting at desolate bus stops but the bus ain't coming.</div>
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I tried so hard to stop Loving my Town but how can I when presented with such smells and sights and the endless possibility that I really will bump into you on the Jubilee Line interchange? The park bench above in Green Park; all the words I have written for this shit hole; my playground and ultimate lover; the only thing that keeps me sane is this old Town.I slip into the art house cinema’s and lose myself in sub titles, alone with gas less coke and dreams of a boy that I no longer am. I cling to the characters of World Cinema, for they give me hope; it’s only on exiting the cinema that I realize that I am surrounded by people I no longer know; my London taken by aliens, strangers and those who only care for the size of their fucking pay cheque.</div>
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I tried so hard to stop being a fucking deluded talentless writer just to impress you; I tried so hard to be a fucking whore in the bedroom just to save you from the thuggish drinkers of the poor club scene and fuck me shoe ladies. I tried too hard and why should I give a fuck about anything? I walked into the perfume store and asked the badly painted lady to spray your scent onto a piece of card; I inhaled it and for a second I was back with you oh and it crushed me; oh it fucked me up; how cruel the memory is..</div>
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I tried so hard to stop crying, but my eyes welled at the serenity of you. If skin was heaven then you wear god. If I could worship you it would never be enough. You have always been my alter and the church I dreamt of building; one day the Moon will give up, it will see the fruitlessness in sharing a world with you; the sun will go out and cry ash; he will say, ‘I never knew she was here and my heat so wasted’.</div>
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I tried so hard to see you. I could see the back of your head in a crowded high street where I was stuck behind a 1000 people with their boring shopping bags, and they would not let me pass. You turned a corner and were gone. Was it you or had I just smelt the scent of your sweet perfume and my sad lonely mind just made her into you? Sadly the latter will be the truth for you died ten years ago and I sit here with a coffee stain being admired by gay men and writing my words; one of the guys said, ” You look like a thug but carry a pen that bleeds the ink of heartbreak...”</div>
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I tried so hard to put you to sleep once and for all, to end the memories of our ferocious fucking and colour by number loving; oh babe I can get the words out and they define me and cover me in shit, but they make me smell of flowers. I died in your eyes more than once and even saw a reflection of a better me; I saw my eyes and they were not so bad; I loved then and was someone; was part of something; the staples in my book...</div>
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I tried so hard to get the real me to show up but this clown kept appearing and he had a black tear falling from one eye and he was me as a boy; how I cry for him, for the me that once molded faces from potatoes and dreamed of fairies; who thought that Dorothy was real and that tornado's would take us all to a better place; who thought that I would one day touch the hand of a woman who loves me; but I lost her in the haze of cigarette smoke and excuses; in the grotesque mind that was taken by demons; too many spliffs, too many late nights...</div>
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I tried so hard to be the magician who could put a smile on your face by producing flowers from a hat but you are more beautiful than any flower and what moves me to tears may just bore you.I tried so hard to be a man just for one day but still ended up being this ugly cunt that people laugh at and no one wants; fuck them, I can use the words moon and cunt in one piece so its them who are lacking...</div>
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I tried so hard to write a symphony in words for you but this was the best I could do; you are worth a symphony so.......how dare I give you this?</div>
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<b><u><span style="font-size: 10pt;">Written and </span></u></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">© </b><b><u><span style="font-size: 10pt;">Owned by </span></u></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">© </b><b><u><span style="font-size: 10pt;">T A Roberts 2007</span></u></b></div>
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